During Typhoon Meranti.
I personally like being single very much. For a while, I actually enjoyed that state. But until a certain spiritual point is cut off, I suddenly realize the huge difference between the words “loneliness” and “celibacy”. .
(I was a bit obsessed with pixels at that time)
Just like the subject of the question, when girls face something unacceptable, they always run away at the first moment. It happened to be that time when they could start their internship and they had just stepped out of school, so I thought about it at that time.
Xiamen
Well, it is a very good city in my impression and I particularly like it. It has the phoenix flower in “Sauvignon Blanc” and the flower in “A Regretful Life”.
Gulangyu Island
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Because I work in the tourism industry, I receive a lot of guests every day, and I am not very close to my colleagues. Most people’s impression of me when they first meet me is that I am “cold” or “aloof”. These two are not the same. What a complimentary word, if I don’t have that mood, I won’t take the initiative to deal with people much, so in
Xiamen
I stayed there for a year and didn’t have any good friends. I remember the ten-level loneliness scale that was popular at that time. I really did everything alone. I didn’t feel particularly lonely at that time because there were too many guests. I was thinking about other things, and after finally taking a rest, I wished I could sleep forever.
The moment when I really felt lonely was when Typhoon Meranti came.
Gulangyu Island
Living on the island, many colleagues and friends called me to inquire about the situation. Until the closure of the island, I hardly received any phone calls to greet me. In an instant, I felt a huge feeling of emptiness filling my chest, and I finally understood the meaning of “loneliness” firsthand. Character.
(Taken before the typhoon came)
Gulangyu Island
The tourism industry on the island was suspended for about half a month due to the impact of the typhoon. During this half month, when no one came and went, my colleagues went home.
Xiamen
I was not very familiar with the island at that time, so I chose to stay on the island. It was too leisurely at that time, and I slept until I woke up naturally. Then I found that it was already dark, and suddenly a sentence came to my mind: “If there is If I disappear one day, no one will find me.” I thought about calling home to check that I was safe? I flipped through it without broadcasting it, so I finally chose to send a message saying “be safe out there, don’t think about anything”.
(I lived in Neicuo’ao at that time, which was very close to Beacon Hill. I really liked going to Beacon Hill to think about life)
you may not imagine
Gulangyu Island
There are so many forks and charming little scenes on the road. That half month is not that big to begin with.
Gulangyu Island
I have been almost everywhere. Sometimes I pray at the entrance of Trinity Hall for a long time. Sometimes I wait for sunset on a certain military ruins base. I wait all day long from early morning and don’t interact with many people. Sometimes I doubt that I will. Not speechless…
Once I was waiting to watch the sunset at the beach. I fell asleep while lying on the grass. When I woke up, I saw the afterglow.
It’s strange. I was very lost during that time. I didn’t want to go out, nor did I have the desire to communicate with others. I didn’t have any idea of ​​going out to play. I was like a twilight old man waiting to die. I occasionally flirted with the young man playing guitar on the beach. Very indifferently, I pretended not to see Piao Ran passing by, and occasionally thought about it on a whim. I went to eat hot pot and purchased a group meal for two people. When I went to eat, the store owner looked confused, “Waiting for the other person?”, “The other half is still on the way, I’m hungry, I want to eat first.” The store owner asked me several times during the way. He stopped talking until after finishing the meal, the boss asked curiously: “Aren’t you waiting?” He paid the bill and left.
Sometimes when I look at the sea breeze and the hustle and bustle of the city opposite, I think about the past, the present, the future, interpersonal relationships, how to deal with people, the childishness of the past, the growth of the present, and those that exist and those that do not exist. Just arrived
Xiamen
At that time, there were large green banyan trees, blue skies and bright bougainvillea, and the sea breeze was particularly pleasant. You could play in the sand at the beach from get off work until dark, and you would be full of energy every day, even for the most tricky guests. No matter how hot the weather is, you can feel calm. But later on, I began to suffer from insomnia for a long time, and I always thought of the past inadvertently. The more lonely I felt, the more I missed the past.
Loneliness is a lack of the ability to love. ——Marquez, creator of “One Hundred Years of Solitude”
Wow, looking back now, I really admire myself back then. Isolated from people, electronic products, and even words, I relied on daydreams and sleep to supplement my loneliness. I was so lonely that I almost became autistic. , but that period was actually the most relaxing and comfortable time in the past twenty years.
When you really grow up and need to take on a lot of responsibilities, you will realize that love is a very tiring thing.

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